Friday, Mar. 25, 2005 - 6:14 p.m.
Oh no! Brent put a question mark after my name. It's way down on the bottom right, but it makes me sad, because it's true: I have been extra-absent. But I am here, just not here here. And I am writing, but not here.
I just returned from Arizona, where I saw a whole bunch of family members, including Russell, who is now 21 years of age and grown up and awesome. I hiked, read, ate...it was all lovely, and I feel about eight million times happier than before I left. I feel relaxed and healthy, and the guilt that always presses in at the corners of my head has receded almost completely. And oh, my family is beautiful. I miss them again already.
Much has happened. It is spring. Kerry moved away. The woman whose dissertation I've helped edit for the past year and a half is now a doctor. I have a new side project -- a cover band. I still work at the same silly job, but I now have A Plan.
And I am writing. Something shifted, and though I check in on all of you online, I do not say anything back. But letters are in the works, and various not-immediately-public things involving words.
Four days left to sponsor Chris's mustache! (That includes me, too, because I am slack.)